Nostalgia

Ang friendster talaga madalas nostalgic.. iba pakiramdam pag tinitingnan mo mga pictures ng mga iba't ibang taong nakasalamuha mo sa buhay mo. Nandiyan na ang mga dati mong mga kaklase, kapit-bahay, kaibigan, ka-ibigan, kalandian, kalaguyo. Andiyan na rin ang mga feeling close, ka-isnaban, stalker, mga kamag-anak na huli mong nakita eh singutan pa, mga kontrabida sa buhay mo.. teacher mong may buhay din pala... lahat lahat na!!! Kung sa bagay lahat na naman ata ng tao ngayon ay may friendster na. Naisip ko lang kasi na habang tinitingnan ko ang profile nila.. view ng pictures nila.. check kung married na, in a relationship, o bading na pala.. naaalala ko pati kung ano ba kong klaseng tao nong mga panahon na nakaka-bonding ko pa sila.. hehe..

Andyan na ung.. siyet!!! ang loser ko pala nung grade school.. ang baduy pa ng mga suot ko no'n..Kasalanan lahat ito ni Madonna!!! Habang tinitingnan ko ang crush ko dati, naiisip ko din ano bang nagustuhan ko dito? Ang wierd talaga ng taste ko dati. Bakit ba nahilig ako sa mga taong malalaki ang ipin??? hahaha!!!! Meron din naman na habang tinitingnan ko eh.. Ang saya!!! Gusto kong bumalik!!! Para bang.. Lord, please??? Puwede po bang bumalik po sa childhood days??? Isasanla ko muna po ang mga responsibilidad ko... tutubusin ko na lang pag balik ko.. hehe.. Or in my not-so-better-self-mood, buti nga at nabuntis siya ng maaga!!! haha.. ang sama ko na talaga!!! Chismosa talaga ako! 'Sensya na friends.. just keeping it real.. at ngayon naiisip ko .. sana sino man un.. di niya mabasa ito!!!

Ano pa man ang mga naiisip natin.. iisa lang ang description..NOSTALGIC...there's a desire somehow to go back to a certain time or phase in your life especially when you remember those times as being the best ones in your life. Sometimes they may not even be the best but still they may have represented a stage in your life where things were simpler.. where life was simpler. And at my age of 23, which by the way is fun and cool in many ways, I still yearn for those times where everything was simple.. black and white.. no gray area!!!

Ang saya siguro kung bumalik ako ulit sa panahon kung saan ang pinakamabigat ko ng problema eh kung paano sabihin sa nanay ko na nabasag ko ung porcelain vase!!! At ang ibig sabihin ng sleepless nights ay excitement kasi di ka na makapaghintay na buksan ang mga christmas gifts mo!!! At ang stategy ay ginagamit at ginagawa para ma-diskartehan mo mga magulang mo tuwing hapon.. kasi ayaw mong matulog..gusto mong lumabas at maglaro!!! At ang kaligayahan ay mas.. abot-kaya.. hehe.. Ever wonder why being happy nowadays can require so much effort? Samantalang dati.. bigyan ka ng malutong na 10 pesos.. eh wow naman.. puwede ko ng bilhin ang lahat.. or at least feeling ko lang!!! hahaha..

When I daydream, I sometimes have this picture in my head of life being like a play station game where if you choose to.. you can simply load a particular stage of your life from a memory card!!! ASTIG!!! But of course we all know better.. it doesn't work that way. So we move forward and carry on. And yes.. after all my rants about nostalgia and all that.. my point is that maybe it is better this way. This way we can learn how to value each moment. And maybe we can't go back to those times literally.. but ah.. the power of memories.. very strong indeed. Let's just keep our fingers crossed that we won't have any severe case of Alzheimer's soon..

So ok lang.. in the end.. nostalgia may sometimes be too nostalgic for comfort.. hahaha.. but I'd still take it as it comes because it does bring me back nevertheless to those wonderful and not so wonderful times that allow me to set things in perspective which definitely gives me that smack in the head that I admittedly most of the time need to take notice!!! According to merriam-webster, Nostalgia "is a wistful or excessively sentimental yearning for return to or of some past period or irrecoverable condition." So.. if you think about it.. nostalgia maybe just maybe screams.. take everything in before it's too late!!! :D :D :D